Tuesday, June 8, 2010

生与死只是一线之差...

It has been awhile since i really go for exercise....
so finally...
yest went for it after work...
damn...go exercise also need 2 jam so long...

mayb bcos i too long din go for gym..
n in a tired n empty stomach condition..
i think i over "pushed" myself...
while waiting for lift..
i start feeling not so good....
mayb d place is not so open air...
n i need fresh air...
n when i went into lift...
shit...
lagi felt tat theres no air circulating inside at all...
i knot tahan...
i suddenly sesak nafas....
yes...
abit panicking...
cant really breathe....
headache..
dizzy...
d floor supposely stop at 12...
when it opened at 6...
i stop d door from closing....
1 leg stepping outside...
i tried 2 breathe....
no...no use...
i cant really talk..
i cant really breathe...
im really in desperate n nervous mode...
i tried 2 find for window...
for air...
fresh n circulating air...
but all i c is walls everywhere....
n sealed window....
d lift closed n continue going up...
i was alone there....

YES..
i really couldnt breathe now...
i start feeling weak...
i start feeling no strength..
i feel like sitting down....
no...i cant...
i force myself 2 walk ard...
keep walkin..
gasping for air...
seconds later..
my vision starting 2 bcom very very blur...
everythin is moving n i cant c clearly...
theres some part telling myself...
ric...u really goin 2 pass out....dis time really gg...
juz let it go n let urself faint...
NOOO.....
i know tat if i pass out...
no1 will come n save me...
don think ppl will come out from tat floor so soon...
no1 will save u...

i forced myself 2 hang on...
must hang on..
must tahan...
don pass out....
keep telling myself....
finally..
i saw a window nearby...
even it is juz slightly opened..
i ran over n breathe....
finally..
fresh air...
vision came back..
but vomitted air few times..
cos ntg in stomach..
so juz vomit but ntg come out..
really felt uncomfortable...

But still..
IM ALIVE.......tq...

i really dono wat will happen if i don hang on tat time....
mayb...
pass out n lying on d floor...
if lucky...
mayb som1 passby n nex thing i see is
lights on d ceiling passing through....oxygen mask on my mouth...ppl lookin nervous bside me...
or if unlucky...
pass out there alone...
no ppl come...
cant breathe...
dead...
nex day paper==> 1 sohai died after gym due to insuffiecient oxygen..
isit possible??i dono...
or even mayb pass out n hit d floor..
head 1st..
blood everywhere...
(im sure u all stil rmb wat happen at d pusat xxx there...)
mayb.......

It is juz JUNE....
i still haven go through half of dis yearrr.....


So...
Juz want u all 2 know...
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN 2 YOURSELF....
ANYTHIN....
MUZ HANG ON...
MUZ HANG ON...
DON LET YOURSELF DOWN....

4 comments:

Ivan Ng 黄昱渊 said...

don't die before me wei :)

ericlai2020 said...

lol...hard 2 say....i try har......hopefully lar.....at least for dis year...haha....

-phin ven- said...

wat happened to u huh??y suddenly like tt?low blood pressure le i tink...nx tm dnt push urself too hard...hugss..love

ericlai2020 said...

lol...kena those dirty things is litat de gua...den din take k myself also..aiks.....fortunately im still here 2 c u all..really glad de......fortunately still alive.....n no funeral need 2 attend...choi..choi....will take k more de lar....hoepfully..hehe..