Definition......

什么是
浪漫
？

什么是
用意
？

如果在一个普通，
但对大家来说又有点特别的日子。。
特地等着那一刻，那一秒。。
写了一封
放了爱意。。放了用心。。放了心意。。放了希望
的信息
寄过去。。
好让打开那信息时，
看到的，
是在
那一天
那一刻
那一分
那一秒
的时候，
写着一些很感性的话
留着纪念。。
可以的话，
回复后，
再拨电过去讲些很lum的话。。。
这，
有那么一点的浪漫，
那么一点的用意吗？？
有什么看法？？

其实老实说，
浪漫，用意，
是要用钱，
才可以买回来的。
浪漫，
是要可以
看到，动到，触到，拥有到，感受到。。
才算是。。
用意，
也是一样，
而且要让全部人
看到，知道，羡慕。。
有那种虚荣感，
才算是。。

区区的那一刻的几行字。。
又算得了什么呢？？

这，
就是现实的世界。。

对不起。。。

对不起
。
。
昨天不能回去
。
陪你
。
和你庆祝生日
。
孩子不孝
。
爸，生日快乐。。。。

坚强。。。

坚强
。
。
要坚强
。
。
要撑下去
。
。
可以的

等待。。。

开心，
难得有机会整大班兄弟可以出来聚会

兴奋，
难得终于可以出来和大家一起踢球

疯狂，
难得几个小时内可以唱歌疯到连阿妈都不认得

上车，
难得可以被那条水带路带错到要U-turn到很大大大大的圈
没有不爽啦
因为以后要被带上车也没机会了

充足，
从早上出到半夜才回来，
整半个KL都走完了
节目一个接一个

开心，
兴奋，
疯狂，
上车，
充足，
的这一天就将过了。。。。

等待着的只有
伤心，
舍不得，
再见，
的那一天了。。。。

F for Failure....Frustration.....Fuck.....

FAILURE
.
Been so
Frustrated...stressed...Tension...fucked up
for my mini p....
my pcb just keep on giving me prob...
really alm took 2 weeks only can get it work...
so sienzz...
no mood 2 study..
no mood to slep...
juz dono y it cant work...
til evaluation time also knot work...
so how??
no marks for the workin part lor...
worked more hard....
do it all over again...
even board also DIY instead of sending 2 lab let technician do...
thought they can give a chance...
thought wrong...
do so much..
just to let them c my board act can work...
den need 2 take out everythin again...
tats all...
wtf!!!
but stil...
seriously thanks 2 my new frens especially zhen long n guo tong,
which i know their names not long ago only...
gave a helpin hand when i need help d most...
its good 2 c there r stil ppl who u don really know willing to help or assist u
without havin a second thought...without havin some smartass ego..
just a pure help n support...
i know i gave them quite some trouble..
sorry n thanks very muchhh...


Frustration
.
Just when i can take a breathe out of dis project...
Just when i thought i can be less frustrated...
i saw a msg sent from my sis...
"Pls watch your manner whenever you go to people's house "
"don't always lie at people's sofa as if that's your house"
"pls have some basic manner"
What The Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really was so furious at tat time...
fortunately i haven watch murderer tat time yet....
if not really gonna hav some mental prob...
I was so bc doing bout my mini p tat doesnt work,
tat made me so frustrated n even barely slep for d 1 n a half week...
n now since my parents came kl..
n stayed at my sis hse...
i juz wana come visit them...
n i was juz too tired n slep on my sis's hse de sofa...
IS TAT A PROB????
im not like little kid go ppl hse treat like my own hse n simply slep on d sofa..
i was really too tired tat i can fell asleep in seconds while sleepin on it..
n now u tell me tat i muz hav some basic manner???????
???????????????
aahhhhhhhh......
but den..
i only realise wat happen...
it's not her fault...
my sis was juz being my sis....
It's d owner.....
d big big big rich owner...
who wants me out....
or shud i say...
Us....
He told my sis.....
tat my parents are not welcomed to his hse....
take me as an excuse to get rid of them....
wat kind of ppl is this??
WAT???
AM I TOO CHEAP TO SLEP ON YOUR EXPENSIVE SOFA??????????
My parents come kl not for vacation...
not for fun...

WAT???
ARE MY PARENTS TOO CHEAP TO STAY ON YOUR RICH BIG HSE???

n if not terpaksa v also don wana come to ur place....
y u rich ppl juz so....like tat????
YOU were so lucky tat u were alive from tat coma....
YOU shud b grateful for tat n start doing good things...
din u learn anythin from it???
U hav a second chance uncle....
use it wisely.....
even when u were lyin on d hospital bed...
v stil purposely come from ipoh to kl juz 2 visit u...
n tat was even my 1st time 2 drive off ipoh...
n now....
where were u when my dad is lying on d bed???
n now u even not welcome them??
where r they going 2 stay nex time come check up???
n even kesian is my sis hav 2 stuck in d middle...
I really HATE such rich n weird ppl....
It's ok if u don respect me...
but if u don respect my parents as well..
i really don give a damn respect to u tooo.....


FUCK
.
fuck all rich ppl wit rich attitude n ego in dis world...

ini sofa mahal saya sebab saya kaya...
ini lantai mahal saya sebab saya kaya...
ini Benz dan BM saya sebab saya kaya...
ini rumah besar saya sebab saya kaya...
ini bukan hotel untuk org macam u...
masuk masuk keluar keluar sesuka hati...
ini sofa mahal saya tak sesuai org u duduk...
ini tempat saya sebab saya kaya...
tempat kaya ni tak sesuai org u datang....
semua benda adalah saya punya..
sebab saya kaya...

FUCK...
juz fuck....

ETM 3136

Thanks to mr.ayman
juz came out from an replacement class from other group..
realising tat i edi attended tat class few days ago..

damn it..
after attended liao one n a half hour i only realise..
n even waited whole day at campus juz 2 attend dis class..
stupid!!!!!
den 2molo evening replacement class still need 2 go arr???
wait long long lar.....
wasting my time!!!!!....

H.U.M

Damn it...
at hospital UM...
spent 6 HOURS....
juz 2 get a painkiller!!!!
n my leg stil d same old same...
wtfff.....
dis few days d patients juz keep
increasing n increasing....
.
took so long juz 2 register...
took so long juz to sit n wait...
even took so long juz to get an x-ray...
however...at least some of d doc here very good...
at least they concern bout their patients..
.
.
despite to c those trainees tat treat those patients as their lab rats...
despite to c those nurses tat don k so much bout d patients..
act there stil some nurses n docs r very frenly n kind...
tats d spirit....
don bcom a nurse or doc juz bcos u like money or chemistry or your parents force u..
do it for the sake of the patients...
concern n k bout them more....
their lifes depends on u all...
.
.
.
最近很多心事，很不开心的，
习惯了听别人的心事而给予劝告鼓励，
却不习惯告诉别人自己的心事，
脸上带着的面具好像已拆不下来了，
只有自己在撑着，伤心谁人知。。
我知老天爷有眼的，你快快康复就对了。。

保佑您。。。。

求神保佑您
身体健康
。
。
求神保佑您
平平安安
。
。
求神保佑您
长命百岁
。
。
求神保佑
。

Black Monday....Freaky Tuesday....

Black Monday
.
.
Shit..
Monday was so so blackkkk....
Thanks to corntoz....
Made me edit til 5stg only slep....
next day woke up at 1.15PM!!!!
wtf!!!...
i skipped 2 hours morning class..
n 1 of them is ENGINE MATHS 5!!!!
damn it....
my 1st time skipping eem since from engine maths 2 or 3...
sad...sad.....
Just 2nd week only eh..i edi skipped cls...how can!!???

Afternoon....
For the person who scratch a brown old saga wit his/HER car during parking.....
FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!!!!!!
FUCK YOU!!!!
You useless thing....
dono how 2 park go learn larr.....
scratch ppl car n runaway.....
Screw You...
Asshole!!!!!

Look wat u did 2 my car!!!!
damnit!!!
Assholeeeeee....
FUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck....
NIte....
Heard som asshole being an asshole again....
y do u hav 2 b such an asshole????
pls think again ok????

Y Monday hav 2 b so black so cruel...?????


Tuesday
.
.
Oh shit...
not enough slep again....
i ALMOST skip my lab...
lab ehh..
THANKS 2 JANSEN..
Bro...really wana thank u againn...n again..
For waking me up....
lab at 9....
he called at 9.16..
reached lab at 9.40....
aiks....d kak don let me sign in ehh..
but after that she wrote late 9.40...
sob..mayb will deduct marks gua....
aiks...

Den...
wow..
my 1st time 2 go in2 d ghost lift in foe...
wow..
can feel d darknessss....
scary....

Den....
wow again....
I SAW SIEW YOK!!!!!
din realise i saw him in MMU!!!!
haha...he's my fren bro...
but in my memory....
he juz a little kid only ehh..
but now saw him studyin in mmu...
1st year degree..
walau...time fliess ehhh..
he grow up d...
eee...but d look stil like d little kid lar...
haha..
guys.!!!!Siew Yok come MMU study lorr!!!!
erm..
juz 4 ur info...
siew yok is not a guy/gal name,
Siew Yok = 烧肉
haha...y??
bcos his bro is 叉烧....

Strangers....

Yest nite went
Sri Rampai Pasar Malam...
situated somewhere near setapak....
which is near Ktar...

It's been awhile since i've been there...
saw some ppl tat almost 2 or 3 years din c...
and got one tat i really cant recognize him at alll....
not even sure is him anot....
cos he chubby til....
juz imagine a fren of urs chubby til u cant recognize him at alll...
aiks...
nowadays...
dono y ppl so easily get fat....
oops...
i mean chubby....
sensitive word......
n i stil...
ai...

Stranger #1
den....
from far...
recognize a close fren of mine...
well..
at least used 2 be...
we were quite good frens back then...
all camp comms.....
hohee...ah du...ah zhao...
very close all of us....

haha...
there was a trademark of us...
where we take out our hand n ask
wat is tat...
n another person will grab on d hand n say...
hao xiong di....
haha....those sohai sohai things....
yea...
dis fren even came mmu melaka to hav dono wat
wushu competition
when we were stil in mlc...
but den...
dis time...
mayb its been years since i saw him...
very excited 2 c him...
went over 2 say hi wit an excited look....
expecting an exciting reaction from him also....
like he used 2 give...
like hugges...but no kisses lar....
but somehow...
mayb its been years also...
he's like...
oh...eric...hi....
long time no c.....
d feeling is like.......
as if he is juz sayin hi to som1 in his coll tat he everyday c...
n not so fren wit him...tat juz a hi bye fren...
as if....
im juz a stranger....
all of us went camps...trips...pangkor......together..
n now....
juz like a stranger....

时间真的会冲淡一切的友情吗？？？

could it be..
few years later after v graduate n c each other
it will turn out like dis too??????


Stranger #2
wow....
dis really happen 1st time in my life....
i mean really experience it live....
while two of us pak-tor-ing along pm...
som1 get very close to me....
tat time i stil haven felt her excistance..
den..
i felt like som1 like pulling my pants...
near my pocket there...
usually only my gf do tat....
den my gf staring at her...
cos she juz stick so close to me...
n her hand....
tat time i felt tat too and look to my pocket.....
WTF!!!!!
tat woman....
i mean tat fucking bitch....
her hand is on my pocket..
trying to pickpocket me....
WTF!!!!!!
n somehow....my reaction juz so calm...
mayb is my first time...
i juz said 2 her....
in canto...
leng lui...steal things arr...???
haha..
dono y i said tat also...
fortunately my mom help me sew a zip on tat pocket...
n her skills quite terrible....
easy 2 feel her hand on me....
but...
a woman???
wtf....wat for pickpocketing??
juz go get fucked larr!!!!!!
u fucking whore....
screw u 1 day for getting caught n being fucked in d jail..
bitch!!!
act i think of turning over n yelling
dis woman steal my wallet....
or catching her...
but then...
think deeply...
after i do dis...
can i walk out dis pasar malam safely???
isit she juz alone??or behind her got ppl....
ppl wit powers tat can make u cant walk out of dis pm safely???
tat u are in his territory??
where u still bringing a gf beside u...
2 person's safety is on ur shoulder....
u wan 2 be a hero???
or wana reach home safely????

Anyway...
for u guys n gals outside....
juz try 2 be extra careful wit ur belongings when u in
any pm ok???