生与死只是一线之差...

It has been awhile since i really go for exercise....

so finally...

yest went for it after work...

damn...go exercise also need 2 jam so long...

mayb bcos i too long din go for gym..

n in a tired n empty stomach condition..

i think i over "pushed" myself...

while waiting for lift..

i start feeling not so good....

mayb d place is not so open air...

n i need fresh air...

n when i went into lift...

shit...

lagi felt tat theres no air circulating inside at all...

i knot tahan...

i suddenly sesak nafas....

yes...

abit panicking...

cant really breathe....

headache..

dizzy...

d floor supposely stop at 12...

when it opened at 6...

i stop d door from closing....

1 leg stepping outside...

i tried 2 breathe....

no...no use...

i cant really talk..

i cant really breathe...

im really in desperate n nervous mode...

i tried 2 find for window...

for air...

fresh n circulating air...

but all i c is walls everywhere....

n sealed window....

d lift closed n continue going up...

i was alone there....

YES..

i really couldnt breathe now...

i start feeling weak...

i start feeling no strength..

i feel like sitting down....

no...i cant...

i force myself 2 walk ard...

keep walkin..

gasping for air...

seconds later..

my vision starting 2 bcom very very blur...

everythin is moving n i cant c clearly...

theres some part telling myself...

ric...u really goin 2 pass out....dis time really gg...

juz let it go n let urself faint...

NOOO.....

i know tat if i pass out...

no1 will come n save me...

don think ppl will come out from tat floor so soon...

no1 will save u...

i forced myself 2 hang on...

must hang on..

must tahan...

don pass out....

keep telling myself....

finally..

i saw a window nearby...

even it is juz slightly opened..

i ran over n breathe....

finally..

fresh air...

vision came back..

but vomitted air few times..

cos ntg in stomach..

so juz vomit but ntg come out..

really felt uncomfortable...

But still..

IM ALIVE.......tq...

i really dono wat will happen if i don hang on tat time....

mayb...

pass out n lying on d floor...

if lucky...

mayb som1 passby n nex thing i see is

lights on d ceiling passing through....oxygen mask on my mouth...ppl lookin nervous bside me...

or if unlucky...

pass out there alone...

no ppl come...

cant breathe...

dead...

nex day paper==> 1 sohai died after gym due to insuffiecient oxygen..

isit possible??i dono...

or even mayb pass out n hit d floor..

head 1st..

blood everywhere...

(im sure u all stil rmb wat happen at d pusat xxx there...)

mayb.......

It is juz JUNE....

i still haven go through half of dis yearrr.....

So...

Juz want u all 2 know...

NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN 2 YOURSELF....

ANYTHIN....

MUZ HANG ON...

MUZ HANG ON...

DON LET YOURSELF DOWN....

Overheard...

few minutes ago,

i overheard d "conservation" between

d colleague beside me n d cleaning maid....

C: ada plastic sampah?

M: tak ada....

C: kenapa tak ada???

M: boss tak kasi....

C: kenapa boss tak kasi???

M: dia belum beli...

C: boss tak beli???kalau macam ni...bagi tau boss u kalau minggu ni dia tak beli...suruh dia nex week tak perlu kerja....

wow...din realise dis colleague can be so powerful!!!!....

n i thought he juz having low level position..

cos everything he also need do de...

lol...

I wanna watch Toy Story 3

15 years ago....

when i was a child...

when my innocent life was only full of tv n cartoons....

there was a movie that made me amazed...

it was

TOY STORY...

a movie which is way beyond cartoons...

a movie tat looks so real...

a movie tat made me feel tat actually cartoon can be so real....

a movie tat made me cry n loves my toys more....

a movie tat brought me back my childhood...

a movie tat made me rmb

"TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!!!"

5 years later...

i was a kid...

tat time,

TOY STORY 2

was out in cinema....

i was excited...

it just feels like toy story is just everyone's childhood...

no matter how old you are...

it just a movie that you cant miss...seriously...

i rmb

"I am your father!!!"

tat time,

i was very anxious bout toy story 3,

keep on waiting and waiting...

waiting and waiting....

until 10 years later...

i've grown up...

forgot most of the memories of my childhood...

whats left are just pieces and blurrs...

cant really rmb much bout toy story 1 n 2 too....

recently...

even was during final exams...

we went for the

TOY STORY 1 and 2 in 3D...

indeed...

it really brings back much n much of my childhood...

even some ppl who never watch b4 and dont hav childhood...

they finally gain back their childhood too...lol....

stil..

whats more exciting is not just this...

the movie tat i've been waiting for 10 years...

TOY STORY 3!!!!

finally....finally gonna be on cinema very very soon...!!!!

and this time...

there will be more new toys too...

so..

which toy i wana see most???

hmmmmm.........

for me....

i think.....

i would like to see is

PEAS-IN-A-POD

Yes,

the first impression i feel

through this toy is..

companion..

friendship...

love...

together...

sharing...

caring...

happy...

y??

bcos you see..

the space is very small...

just enough to fit in 3 of them...

but stil...

they felt happy..

they wont become lonely..

they wont become bored...

if anythin happens to one of them..

theres stil another 2 are there

to help..

to comfort...

to share their happiness and sadness...

to love...

just imagine 3 of them singing..

"You got a friend in me....

You got a friend in me..."

yes..im sure it will be great....

when i was small...

i was lonely at home..

i always like to go my frens house and play...

tats y i really appreciate

friendship...

until now...friendship is still very important in my life...

and i will always rmb the ups and downs we've been through

together wit all my frens...

Tats y i picked

PEAS-IN-A-POD...

i wanted everyone to feel and rmb

the loves...

caring...

happpiness..

from their frens and loves one

when they are together wit them...

Hope everyone can be happy together...

and there will be no more loneliness....

and hope TOY STORY 3 will be great!!!!

赌懒....

ECP
手上有的是答案...
却没有时间去读它...
读不好,
不会做,
看着明明如果有读就会做的问题...
空着送给它...


ETM
看着每一道问题,
我都会做,
至少勉强算有做好功课,
可是,
却没有时间去做,
空了很多,
看着明明就会做可以得分的问题,
不够时间,
空着送给它..


起码有20分啊!!!!!
20分啊!!!
你知有几多吗!!!!!!.............
ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......

本来以为还有机会...
现在泡汤了...
泡汤了...
泡汤了...
泡汤了...
泡汤了...
蘑菇汤..
ABC汤..
猪肚汤..
苦瓜汤..
...................
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

很想打人啊!!!!

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屌

同样的...

同样的,
其实,
自己也有很多很多,
很想要问的问题,
很多很多。

只是,
却不知该怎么开口，
也不知该从哪儿开始问起，
也知道，
是不可能得到任何的答案的。

所以，
到最后，
也只能保持沉默，
什么都放在心里。

知道的，
就是，
别人有的是，
本事，
一流，
厉害。

怎么办？ 怎样才会有不想你的一天？

初恋红豆冰 + 分享会...

那天,
终于去看了阿牛的,
初恋红豆冰。

之前，
真的很期待要去看这部电影，
因为，
阿牛用了他
全部家产，全部时间，
连家人都没时间陪，
来制作这部电影。

其实，
对本地的电影来讲，
真的蛮不错的，
很有感觉，
很有意思，
也让我们回想起很多，
以前的回忆。。。

好怀念，
小时候我们爽不爽就
不要跟你好，
第二天又没事了。

好怀念，
以前那呆呆的中间线，
虽然看回去真的很傻嗨，
但这就是阿力的trademark吗,
不是每个人可以梳郭富城的头发。。
哈哈。。

好怀念，
在幼稚园的时候，
坐巴士回家时，
她，
第一次睡着而躺在我的肩膀，
忘不了。

没想到，
这部戏有在
Medan Kit 的 Bus station 拍摄，
它那一条一条用木做的椅子，
好怀念，
当年我和她刚开始约会，
到在一起的时候，
那时的我们没有车，
只能搭巴士，
有好几次，
都陪着她，
在那巴士站等巴士，
好怀念。
我真的很想念你，你知道吗？

我觉得，
这部戏的结局是想讲，
其实，
初恋，
只是人生中的一个阶段，
它可能是你的一世，
也可能只是和你擦肩而过的一段恋情，
但，
也是你人生中的一个阶段罢了。
故事没什么结局，
因为他要让你知道，
初恋，
重要的不是它的结局，
而是你和她一起度过和享受的过程。
这，
才是不能遗忘的回忆。

没想到，
几天过后，
阿牛和易杰齐竟然来到MMU有个
电影心得分享会，
更期待！
因为想听听他
如何实现他的导演梦，
还有这些年来的拍摄过程。
这次的分享会，
和平时的很不同，
平时我们只能远远看着，
只有他们在讲我们在听，
这次的，
还能跟他们interact，
有好几次我都间接中从远远和他们谈了几句，哈哈。
叫他们唱歌他们会唱，
和他们讲笑话他们还会kaopek回你，
感觉真不同。

听牛分享了很多，
有同感的是，
他说拍夏日嬷嬷茶的时候，
看到很多很大的那种录影机，
很羡慕，
很想自己也能拍，做导演。
我回想起，
以前在library和FIT，
也有人在用着那些大大的录影机在拍摄，
那时真的很兴奋很羡慕，
真的很希望有天可以拍个属于自己的一部戏。

他说，
拍一部戏，
不是只靠技术或其他的问题，
能用钱解决的就不是问题，
要拍一部戏，
重要的，
是要看你的心，
看你怎样用你的心去拍好一部戏。

他也说，
我们要有梦想，
而且梦想要越想越大，
因为不用钱嘛，
要有自己的梦想。。。。。

我看了那部戏和分享会后，
真的，
真的很想真真实实的拍一部，
属于自己的电影，
不知几时才可以实现，
唉。。。

这是我看在外面很难找到的一个video，
很有感觉。

不好意思，
摇来摇去因为跟着音乐一起摇，
“oi" 是我喊的，也加了自己不少的噪音进去。

22042010...

2010年4月22日
是
Earth Day,
也是
我们的日子。

曾经,
我们是毫不相识的陌生人,
现在,
我们是患难真情的一家人,
以后,
我们是。。。。。

十年后，
会发生什么事我不知，
可能，
大家会回到，
2度55‘38“N，
101度39‘11”E，
重逢又聚在一起，

也可能，
大家都活不到那天，
但至少，
至少当它漂到某个地方被某个人捡到打开时，
看到的，
是曾经，
曾经有一班
肯为大家
上刀山，下火海，
一起出生入死的，
生死之交。

谢谢
你们这些年来的，
陪伴，关心，照顾。
祝，
友谊万岁。

朋友们，
十年后再见。

16042005。。。

今天，

是2010年4月16日，

5年前的今天，

在那个下午，

我和她跑进了

Leo Room。

还记得那时的她，

穿着每次

Leo function

都穿的白色短裙。

。

。

她，

坐在我腿上，

紧紧的抱着她，

我，

看着她，

我，

人生中第一次，

触碰了女孩的嘴唇，

感觉真特别。

。

。

谢谢。

。

。

也许，

这一次，

不能讲声，

亲亲节快乐，

至少，

希望以后可以记得这，

感觉。

Breakeven.....

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't breakeven.

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven.

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
I'm falling to pieces,
I'm falling to pieces.

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise word's gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven.

And, what am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces.
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces.
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm try and make sense of what little remains
'Cause you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break, no it don't breakeven.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces.
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't breakeven no,
Oh it don't breakeven no,
Oh it don't breakeven no.

.

.

.

I felt your pain too.........

医院记。。。

当一个人衰时，
不衰到彻底的话，
它都不会停。

昨早，
从学友的，
我真的受伤了醒来了，
发现到，
它不能了，
紧张了，
想补救，
却不能，
只好拿到总院去救救。

真的很紧张，
我的全部，
都在那。
为什么，
偏偏要将的时候发生?
我真的不明。
你想我怎样？？

到了，
给了医生，
看着他带它进手术室，
很紧张。
在门口等着，
看着门上面的
闲人免进，
就好像手术室的红灯，
都在亮着。
在门口徘徊着，
等待着，
紧张担心着，
坐不安，
心很乱，
抱着一个，希望有救的心态。

医生出来一下问问其他人东西，
感觉好像护士突然走出来拿棉花或什么的，
好想冲向前问，
它，怎样了？
可以救吗？
医生只给我一个手势，
叫我等等。

一个小时了，
医生出来了。


虎年，真的真的很难过。。。。。


Harddisk，
就好像爱情一样，
当你放得越多进去时，
当坏了完了时，
才知道失去全部东西有几痛苦...
天，
你要我怎样，
真的要我失去所有吗？

PS：if anyone knows anyone who knows how to recover harddisk files.....pls.....pls help me.....thank you....really appreciate.....my memories depends on you.....tq...